Singaaaaaalong

Almost
(Bowling For Soup)

I almost got drunk at school at 14
Where I almost made out with the homecoming queen
Who almost went on to be miss texas
But lost to a slut with much bigger breastes
I almost dropped out to move to LA
Where I was almost famous for almost a day
And I aaaaalmost had you
But I guess that doesn’t cut it
Aaaaalmost loved you
I almost wished u would’ve loved me too.



I almost held up a grocery store
Where I almost did 5 years and then 7 more
Cuz I almost got popped for a fight with a thug
Cuz he almost made off with a bunch of the drugs
That I almost got hooked on cuz you ran away
And I wish I woulda had the nerve to ask you to stay
And I aaaalmost had you
But I guess that doesn’t cut it
Aaaalmost had you
And I didn’t even know it.



You kept me guessing and now I guess that
I spent my time missing you
I almost wish you would’ve loved me too.



Here I go thinking about all the things I could’ve done
I’m gonna need a forklift cuz all the baggage weighs a ton
I know we’ve had our problems I can’t remember one.



I almost forgot to say something else
And if I can't fit it in I’ll keep it all to myself
I almost wrote a song about you today
But I tore it all open and I threw it away
And I aaalmost had you
But I guess that doesn’t cut it
Aaaalmost had you
And I didn’t even know it



You kept me guessing and now I guess that
I spent my time missing you
And I aaalmost had you.aaaaaalmost had you.
I almost wish you would have loved me too.

Nugget #1

I claw till it wails out.Okay, so you are alive!?!Hello.

Bernalomaniac

Nuthing heavy.It is windy today and the temperature is suddenly a bit low.I am dying to run up and dance on the terrace.But,I 'll wait for it to get a bit dark.Otherwise the neighbours might take offence.Watever...I spent my day reading more about Bernal.C'mon now he is the God!!And I am mad mad mad about him.Infact, I have been trying to find out if 'The Hungry Tide' shooting is over or yet to start.I used my SIMC projects to ask the film directors(which ever I got to meet), if it was done.But, noone knew anything for certain.Most of them hadn't even heard of him.So, I am kinda hoping they are not done yet.Fingers crossed.I so want to see him as Fokir.Somehow it suits him.I read the whole novel picturising him thus.Oh! he would rock for sure.Initially, I couldn't decide who was better...Alejandro Sanz,Takishi Kaneshiro,or Bernal.But, then my good sense prevailed.Bernal any day.One look into those green eyes...the glittering emerald of the oceans....n his smile is to die for....the dracula set is so sexy.Too hot for words....

Just look at the way his eyes smile.



He is OK.I think in a way Shakira makes him look good.









Though he is reminiscent of someone I hate with all my guts,I will not be partial.He is gr8 looking,prolly a little too much.
P.S: Ok this post has caused me a lot of bad mood.Hec..why is it so difficult to fix up pics here??

A Few Good Men(n their films)

Today incidentally, I switched on to the right channel.They were showing a film I would remember for a long time.Summer Interlude by this fellow named Ingmar Bergman.Now,I had no idea if any such man lived, leave alone make some great movies.All I can say is this guy can actually look into peoples' minds and hearts.It had past and present interweaved,love and loss,age and youth, innocence and crude experience.It was a delight.I found simplicity,yet a very very individualistic touch.I remember that scene with that old woman walking,her face like a pale mask,and Maj-Britt Nelson walking behind.How experience draws away any space for feelings,care,and how man dances away like a dead,old,doll.Thankgoodness for Henrik's diary.Each frame is there,just where it should be,hanging there in that vault of time,you go again and again to it,and there it stays put.Silent,but so full.It is brimming with ...what should I call it?...taking help of physics here...a million particles in Brownian motion...you can see the spark(in Marie's eyes,her look), and you feel the energy forever latent in age(that shows itself actively during the summer with Henrik).

I found out that Bergman died just a year back,30th July 2007 to be precise(it was my brother's birthday that day).I can't believe how disappointed I am.Not that I could have met him.Not that unreal.All I mean is, it is scary to know just how many great things I donot know,and how many great people I will not know before they die.I want to watch all his films The Seventh Seal,Smile of a Summer Night,Wild Strawberries,Cries and Whispers,Fanny and Alexander,Through a Glass Darkly,Winter Light,The Silence...these are the best according to Google.

Another film I keep meaning to mention and forget everytime is Mirror Mask.If you are interested in delving deep into the human psyche, and if you dance across the thin line separating real from dream occasionally,then this one might just interest you.This stuff makes you want to become a filmmaker.I can only feel stuff like this,putting it into words and actually making a film is like genius level work.Throughout it makes you feel dude, this how dreams are..they are so sensible when you are dreaming, but once you wake up, they are amazingly strange...and most interesting is that you always know who the people are,only you seldom see their faces.Must watch!!!It is like a well orchestrated opera...where you fight your own self and win your way back home.Everyone searches for the Mirror Mask, only a few find it.

Speaking of the context has anyone seen The Science of Sleep by Michel Gondry(he is yet another genius)?That's another film I have to watch...both due to the story and of course, Gael Garcia Bernal.I guess I am too excited,should calm down.

Grrrrrrrrumpy!!

Omg my head aches so bad.Late nights.Bad moods.Grumpy mornings.Very connected.Bolted out of bed this morning at 6, cos my dear maid is punctual.I slept at 3 last night,so...I looked like such a nightmare,rite out of some horror flick...pale face, dark circles,hair all standing against gravity, and worst of all I couldn't open my left eye.She shoots in and starts pouring out questions...why I didn't open the door sooner,what chai I would have, why I didn' I keep the food in the refrigerator(she could have taken it).All this while I try to pry open my eyes and stand on my feet...and the song Lucy in the sky with Diamonds is pounding on my head.What a way to start your day,sunday that too!

The news sucks...could they stop playing the sobbing Sreesanth,poor guy.Another minor raped,when would they hand out death penalties(I wonder why it still suchcha debate...a rapist can't be mended).Rahul Gandhi has probs wid being called 'yuvraj' n blah blah.So, big deal..would things change if they don't call him that???He is the unofficial watever!I wonder what happened to the nuke deal...n I am sick of following the US primaries.November kab aaega?Kolkata Knight Riders lost!! So you have bad days.But, I am hoping they would recuperate.
Ok some cluttered conversation.Payal, a very very happpppie belated birthday to u.Tried to leave a message on ur meebo.Nahi hua.Sona, I am dying to hear from you.Happy journey.Come online soon!Sorabh(It feels strange to call u this...motu wud do,watsay?),have a luvly time :P.Rickyjee..tussi kab update karogey blog???I m waiting. Pranshu...nuthing, big hug!Adarsh..whr s my gana?Its almost a month yaar!

P.S Last night the moon was reddish and it blinked.One moment it was there and then it vanished.I'll look for it tonight.

Cleaning Out my Closet

Home alone!!Marooned for the weekend.I hope Roadies is good enough tonight.I hope the electricity doesn't ditch.Yesterday, there was a full two hours blackout...from 6 in the evening to 9.30..wait that's more than two hours.I can't get enough of this Jab We Met track Aaogey jab tum saajna,angna phool khilengey...Wat else, I tried to read my books.I am trying real hard to negotiate with myself the interesting aspect of the history of films.So far it is tolerable.



I am already missing my brother.Last night we had a minor skirmish.Something about light and darkness.He spoke of strange stuff while there was no electricity.I didnot understand him at all.All I thought was that he was trying to scare me.So, when the light was back I laughed outright with relief..my soul expanded...freedom from the ninth gate story and terrible murders...n how women will become in the age of mutants...how everyone is a self,an island and have to find their own place...koi kisi ka nahi hota and all that.He did not like it,prolly because my laugh was like a treason to his heart's secrets.But, all I wanted to do was tell myself I wasn't scared.Watever!!

I am hungry,but I don't feel like getting up.Lazybones.I am wondering how I would spend the nights.Again I will have to cover myself up in this heat.Late night monsters exist.Or else I will have to sing to myself all through.I hope no thieves plan a raid.Last week we had twin burglary in our colony.Keeping my fingers crossed.Though I kept my emergency stuff, I know when time came I couldn't hurt a child.

Now Sona is also not online...who will I talk to????Why do people have to have visit relatives, perpare for exams, or work when I have nuthing to do, but wait all alone in darkness?Wow if SG heard this, she would pout and say, Maria that is what I call a rhetorical question.Enough rambling. barsega sawan,barsega sawan jhoom jhoom ke,do dil aise milengey.



P.S I know I am turning mad...staying on my own does dat to me.

hmmm...

Love you Maa, miss you at times.