Saturday, October 6, 2007

STRIPPED


Back against the wall

On a night last fall,

Sat chin on my knees

Listened for buzzing bees,

And looked for the cresent moon-

Was it real or,was I in a swoon?

No bees,just flies on garbage can

Moon stole to the land of Peterpan.


Love was truck full of trash

Ruthless and brash..

Filled my cup to brim

Walked on roads grim

Just to wail out my head

Coz my fairy Godmother is dead.

And I am to walk in her stead

While soul craves for butter and bread


Longing for the rainy day,

I fiddle along all the way.

When drops pour,

I'll soar

Wrapped in white love

Up, up and above

I'll fly in blinding zest

Unto my final rest..

And then in the lap of Halleluah..

Will I find my long lost Sanghrilah.

Scribbling some stray thoughts....


I was a zombie in that lighted fair...the poles and arches adorned in light reminded me of the silk cobweb drenched in the morning dew.A sudden warmth brought me back to consciousness.My beautiful child looked like a wide-eyed wanderer...I shook her fingers, she looked up at me and with the enthusiasm of a one who had spotted El Dorado, Lucy sang.."London bridge is falling down,my fair lady.."


I strained my ears.In the chaos of this big chaos, I thought I heard my favourite song.Yes,that surely was the song...my finger tips were already dancing with the stimulii..I surely heard the song.Now high..now low..so the wave did flow.But did I really hear it?What if I didn't??Yes, the "no" has already stopped the song..it's moving away from my mind.What nullity had I succumbed to..


Walking down the stairs step by step in a little fury, I saw the cinematic clipping of the running rail-road...one bar after another..running so fast.God knows why it drew the thought of death to me..


Like the many disagreeable noises, the sound of the crying infant wrenches the heart somewhere.Then, I would rave about in violent uneasiness trying to pacify the soul of that howling mite.


I laid back on my pillow failing to gain any peace.I still had my spects on.I opened my eyes again.The dirty corner still stood.A wave of anger and suppressed pain at being disobeyed crashed against my heart.Tomorrow ,I'll fire that stupid,lazy maid.



I see the multitudinous ocean of human faces from my window..".we have so much of body that there is no room for soul"...who said that??...."all bending down-wrist by wrist,feet by feet marching towards the ultimate Fall.


The old pair of slippers worn over years still going strong.The feet were practically imprinted on them...as though the ghost of the wearer still claimed them.



Rimless,crystal clear spects.She said she had kept them with special care.They were special..but in which way I couldnot understand...strange little philosophies humans adhere to...



Thick, yellow candles with "ave maria" sketched across in blazing red...




After our jig, we found the 'basti' people dancing madly, on the other side of the compound wall..this part took a curious pleasure in their little fulfillment...and we dancing within our sophisticated four walls and blind legalisation of our sentiments mocked with sarcasm at the jumping fools.



Standing on the balcony, she checked the shadow of her earthly form that the full moon had cast...engulfed in self.Pitiable,little narcissist.



He was a regular beggar in his threadbare coat.


Things that make me go mmmmmmm....


Open roads...n open green fields..



Good-natured laughter..



To feel the wind run through my hair...



The look of wonder in a baby's eyes..



Cozy,little furballs..



To hug and cuddle(has medicinal properties)..



Dew-drops on virgin,green grass..



Thronging in the dark with burning candles,n swaying to the tune"leaving on a jet-plane"



Fluttering white curtains...



A bunch of tiny wild-flowers...



Dancing on a moonlit night...




Hogging on ghar ka khana...



Watching my idiot brother smile wickedly(i love spoiling him)..



Shouting my guts out from a mountain top(i miss ooty)

THE EXODUS


I locked myself up in a room

Of four cotton walls, and

I swallowed the key

'cos I bruised easily.


There i played little games with shadows and smoke

And slept in my paper-tent.



I had a wooden Napolean and

Two Persian cats,

Fiftytwo cards and a large velvet hat.

I dreamt in colours-vibrant and subdued.

I drank from a pitcher humble and small..

Cozy in my comfort and none to call.



Strumming endless days of my heart

Thankyou for no bandy-legged love nor lore

I'm here where noone's been afore..

Sure there are no clouds,nor there rain

But, it's free from all the pain.


I can dance with seven stars in my hair

There would be none to laugh or stare..



Call me oblivious, and I will say

Thankgod I can stay

With black-coffee stains on my soul

And not see them at all.

Friday, October 5, 2007

HIDING IN THE LATE OCTOBER SHADOWS

I scribbled..and scratched off my lines...
Pondered on for some honey-dipped words
Singing of golden old days of lethargic sing-song..
But, my vanity got the better of me..

Looked out and the rest was ..oh but
A well-defined blur..and they said..
That my eyes were failing me..
Or triviality had welled..from the shaky,shallow
Awareness of the self..
Huh..if only i could laugh..
But there is more to that than fragmented
Tug-of-wars..than winning in this wicked child's play..

Many aeons far..i had promised to fight this..
But,now hiding in the late october shadows..
I hear the cacophonic truce beating at my doors..
And lo..where's my vanity..my pride..my protector
Nowhere to be seen..while i crouch in dimmed desperation
To be rescued..by time..man...or that god..
To go back...amidst the snowy curtains..
Lover's embrace..or mother's lap.
Far from this wordy world...n sleep

They are all dying..with days
But I donot give up on
My unheroic pursuit..
For my touchstone...
Who needed a heaven,if this world was bliss..?
In the sheets of silence..